我是在同光第9年(2005)來的，那是個沒有牧者，長老們輪流擔任主日證道的年代，也是由長老主持洗禮慕道班，我到現在依然記得John哥在萬華舊堂行政辦公室裏為我上1對1洗禮慕道班的景象，年輕時聽聞對於長老教會早期營救黨外民運人士，有一次參加228的紀念活動，竟然看到有位牧師也在台上發言，而那位牧師也都有來同光證道，那是一個很特別的印記，因為，那位牧者就是為我施洗的牧者。
來同光之前 我流連在不同的教會將近8年，直到有一天午後坐在國父紀念館大樹下剛好翻完荒漠甘泉，有一股聲音告訴我該受洗了。那時我想著國外有同志教會，台灣一定也有，所以我上網找到了同光，發了mail，就來了，這一待就超過20年。
我不是一個很喜歡建立緊密人際關係的人，初期來同光，就愛來不來，直到有一年我哥哥在高雄出車禍，半夜收到警察和醫院通知，哥哥人在加護病房，那時候已經半夜，我緊張害怕驚惶的在中和小組求救，半夜要怎麼下高雄，尬的，我路痴耶，超過桃園以外的對我來說就是國外了，我那時才真正體會了甚麼叫做【有人在為你禱告】，我跟這一群人又不熟，我根本沒在付出的，沒在交際應酬的，但他們在那3天持續為我禱告，直到我大哥醒來，我永遠記得小組員也說好啦，禱告班下班啦。
當我們沒有把自己放在那個環境，你其實對任何事就都是無感的；但當我開始去感並受加入了，才知道那是小組的日常。之後，我就開始穩定在小組聚會，我自己也持續了幾年的一年讀完一次聖經計畫，在小組我也很喜歡帶領查經。
我也非常穩定的參加教會的活動，只要有需要接待新朋友和來賓的主日和對外活動，我都會擔任招待同工，那也是同光每年大型聖誕晚會的年代，超興奮，每個小組都在動員，都會出一個節目，可以看到當年的姊姊們華麗艷麗的裝扮。那也是同光各種外展服事蓬勃熱烈的年代，有監獄書信、活水泉愛筵擺餐服事、關愛之家服事。還有每一年教會必定參與的台北同志遊行，近年彩虹遊行全台開花，也帶著教會一起參與桃園遊行、台中遊行、高雄遊行。
我不是一個具有開創性或原發性的個性，職場上一直從事業務工作，專長在整合、專案執行，剛好這樣的能力也在教會中的事工上能很快調整適應，我喜歡動員，找同工們一起，尤其是從2013多元成家三法案時教會就加入法治研討小組，再到2016年帶領教會加入同志/性別平權團體的行列和尤美女立委一路努力爭取同性婚姻民法修正案，同年婚姻平權大平台在凱達格蘭大道舉辦「讓生命不再逝去，為婚姻平權站出來」音樂會，2017年5月24日司法院公布釋字第748號解釋文，到2017年5月24日大法官就釋憲聲請裁決現行《民法》未保障同性二人的婚姻自由及平等權已屬違憲；再到2018年11月24日全國性公民投票通過同性婚姻不直接修改民法；最後成功進展到2019年5月17日立法院會三讀通過司法院釋字第748號解釋施行法，5月22日總統蔡英文公布，5月24日司法院釋字第748號解釋施行法正式生效；這一路上教會都沒有缺席。
初進教會的那幾年見證了每一次大型事工造成同工之間的分歧、衝突、消耗、離開，這也是在我後來的長執服事過程中，不斷提醒自己，鼓勵每位同工都各自擺上自己的一點心力和一點勞力、腦力和一點點時間，一起成就每個來自上主呼召感動而展出事工。因著各種外展服事，我也有機會陪伴、聆聽肢體們各種生命歷程樣貌，看到了儘管是同一個大家都支持的議題，但我們每個人所努力的過程、呈現的方式、終極目標的設定都不同，我學習到，要如何去實踐：讓上帝介入、讓上帝醫治，沒有誰的方式是有效的是相對被尊崇的，
最後，想跟大家分享，我自己在信仰路上領略到的「順服的功課」。
怎樣的行為叫做順服？什麼叫上「帝成就你的旨意成就，然而，不要成就我的意思，只要成就你的意思」？
很奇妙，每次我呼喊主的時候，心臟會有電流流過，（不是心律不準那種喔）。我每天會努力有一小段時間在河濱快走常走，我完全沉浸在只有我與主同在的那個靜謐時刻 ，完全聽不到也感受不到身旁任何聲音，只有空，唯有主。
我的信仰落實在生活中很像十一奉獻，凡事盡九成的努力，最後那一成，我交個上帝，無論結果如何，我都欣然接受，也很恩典，我總是能在當中找到我好覺得挺滿足、很快樂、好恩典的一種FU~
上帝對我來說是個「錨」，是我的中心思想，我可能會漂蕩，但我不會走到偏失迷茫。(笑~)可能因為我天生路癡，我真的很不怕迷路耶，教會多同工都覺得我很樂觀，甚麼事都很從容，都覺得沒問題，但怎麼可能，我不過就是個普通人，很多時候我都也是超怕的、超擔心、壓力超大，想說：靠~我怎麼會答應接這個事工啦~~~但最後，嘿，上帝就是會成就！超阿門！
很多時候，當我們迷惘、撞牆，覺得長久的禱告就是不見成就，搞不清楚是對自己失望？還是對上帝失望？嘿~你願不願意安靜下來，願不願意接受：「這就是上帝在跟你說話」，你願不願意給妳自己一個機會？你願不願意給上帝一個機會？去試試，上帝為你開的一條新的道路？我相信，禱告是會有果效的，端看你怎麼看待你的禱告。而這就是我的信仰觀，我對「順服」的領悟~
I arrived at Tong-Kwang in 2005 (the 9th year of the church’s founding). It was an era when we had no resident pastor; instead, the elders took turns preaching on Sundays and leading baptismal classes. To this day, I still remember Brother John giving me one-on-one baptismal lessons in the administrative office of our old Wanhua sanctuary. In my youth, I had heard about the Presbyterian Church’s history of rescuing dissidents during the pro-democracy movement. Once, while attending a February 28 Incident memorial event, I was surprised to see a pastor speaking on stage who had also preached at Tong-Kwang. It left a profound mark on me—because that very pastor was the one who eventually baptized me.
Before coming to Tong-Kwang, I wandered between different churches for nearly eight years. Then, one afternoon, while sitting under a large tree at the Sun Yat-sen Memorial Hall, I finished reading Streams in the Desert. A voice told me it was time to be baptized. I thought to myself that since queer-affirming churches existed abroad, there must be one in Taiwan too. I found Tong-Kwang online, sent an email, and showed up. That was over 20 years ago.
I’ve never been someone who seeks out close interpersonal relationships. When I first started coming to Tong-Kwang, my attendance was spotty at best. That changed the year my brother had a car accident in Kaohsiung. I received the call from the police and the hospital in the middle of the night—he was in the ICU. Terrified and panicked, I cried out for help in my small group chat. I had no idea how to get to Kaohsiung in the dead of night; I’m notoriously bad with directions—to me, anywhere past Taoyuan feels like a foreign country!
It was then that I truly understood what it means to have “someone praying for you.” I wasn’t even close to these people; I hadn’t contributed anything or socialized much. Yet, they prayed for me continuously for three days until my brother woke up. I’ll never forget my group members joking, “Alright, the prayer shift is over; we’re off the clock!”
When you don’t immerse yourself in an environment, you remain indifferent to it. But once I started to feel and participate, I realized that such care is simply the “daily bread” of a small group. After that, I began attending regularly. I also committed to a “Bible in a Year” reading plan for several years and discovered a love for leading Bible studies.
I became a steady participant at church events. Whenever there was a need for ushers to welcome new friends or guests, I was there. Those were the days of Tong-Kwang’s massive Christmas galas—it was so exciting! Every small group was mobilized to put on a performance, and you’d see the older “sisters” in their most glamorous, dazzling outfits. It was also a vibrant era for outreach: prison correspondence, serving meals at Living Water Spring, and volunteering at Harmony Home. Then there was the annual Taipei Pride march. In recent years, as Pride events have blossomed across Taiwan, I’ve traveled with the church to participate in marches in Taoyuan, Taichung, and Kaohsiung.
My personality isn’t naturally “pioneering.” In my professional life, I work in sales, specializing in integration and project execution. These skills allowed me to adapt quickly to church ministries. I love mobilizing people and gathering co-workers. This was especially vital starting in 2013, when the church joined the legal study group for the “Diverse Family Three-Act” bills. By 2016, I was leading the church to join forces with LGBT and gender equality groups, working alongside Legislator Yu Mei-Nu to fight for the Civil Code amendment for same-sex marriage.
I witnessed the 2016 “Stand Up for Marriage Equality” concert on Ketagalan Boulevard; the 2017 Interpretation No. 748 by the Constitutional Yuan, which ruled that the denial of marriage rights was unconstitutional; the 2018 referendum; and finally, the historic passage of the implementation act on May 17, 2019. Throughout this entire journey, the church never missed a beat.
In my early years, I saw how large-scale ministries could cause friction, burnout, and departures among coworkers. During my later service as a deacon and elder, I constantly reminded myself to encourage everyone to simply offer what they could—a little effort, a little labor, a little thought, and a little time—to collectively fulfill the callings given by God. Through outreach, I’ve listened to the life stories of many brothers and sisters. I’ve learned that even when we support the same cause, our processes and goals differ. I learned how to practice letting God intervene and letting God heal. No one’s method is “superior” to another.
Finally, I want to share what I’ve learned about “Obedience.”
What does obedience look like? What does it mean to say, “Lord, let Your will be done, not mine”? It’s a mysterious thing. Every time I call upon the Lord, I feel an electric current pass through my heart (and no, it’s not an arrhythmia!). During my daily power walks by the riverside, I immerse myself in quiet moments with the Lord. I can’t hear or feel anything around me. There is only stillness—and the Lord.
My faith in daily life is like a tithe: I give 90% effort to everything I do, and I hand the final 10% over to God. Whatever the outcome, I accept it joyfully. It is a grace; I always find a sense of satisfaction and happiness in that space.
To me, God is an “Anchor.” He is my center of gravity. I might drift, but I won’t lose my way or become lost in a daze. (Laughs) Perhaps because I’m naturally bad with directions, I’m actually not afraid of getting lost! Many coworkers think I’m an optimist who handles everything calmly, but I’m just an ordinary person. Many times, I am terrified and stressed, thinking, “Crap, why did I agree to take on this ministry?” But in the end, God makes it happen. Total Amen!
When we are lost or hitting a wall, we often wonder: Are we disappointed in ourselves, or disappointed in God? If you are willing to be still and accept that “this is God speaking to you,” would you give yourself a chance? Would you give God a chance to show you a new path? I believe prayer is effective; it all depends on how you view your conversation with Him. This is my faith, and my understanding of obedience.
